Saturday, August 23, 2008

Today

today I went to see Kimball only for the 2nd time since he's been gone. It seems so weird to be there looking at this tiny little piece of ground that isn't as green as the rest because it has been taken up and put back down. I don't really know what to say or think when I'm there because there's something missing it seems like. I don't know if he's listening or if I should talk to him like he's there but I know that I feel his love when I'm there. Today eric was talking to his brother and found out that they know someone who is pregnant and there baby has a heart defect and a genetic disorder also. My heart goes out to them and there family and I would love for everyone to pray for this family and there baby. We are doing well and would again like to thank everyone for there thoughts and prayers.

6 comments:

Rischel said...

My heart goes out to you and your family Tracy. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Rischel

tamikay said...

I can't tell you it will get easier, but you do learn how to keep going. There doesn't ever seem to be a "right" thing for people to say. I remember one of the general authorities talking about the feelings he had after losing his mother. He said that as he drove home he saw people living their lives all around him as though nothing had happened, but his world was different and would never be the same. That is how it felt when my Dad passed away. We will continue to pray for you family. I know Christ is the prince of peace, and he will do all he can do to comfort you, but I also know it is still so extremely hard. I miss my Dad every single day, and it has been over two years, but I have gotten to the point where I can smile at the thought of him, his smile, his laugh, and know that I need to live my life to be with him again someday...and eternity will be a lot longer than today.

Tami McConkie Perrin

Tiffany Fackrell said...

Hey guys, did you get the backpack that I returned? Sorry I didn't call before I stopped by, I was sort of in the errand running mode and if I didn't get it done then it wouldn't have gotten done! Thanks again for letting us use it, it worked like a charm!!!

Also thanks so much for hanging out with us while we were in town. It was fun to get to know alissa and Tracy better. Tracy I really had a good time chatting with you, I think we had more in common then I ever thought we did!! Funny how that happens huh! I am still thinking about you guys constantly and you are in our prayers! hopefully we can get together during christmas sometime, that is our next trip to washington!!! Take care and thanks for everything!

KingFAM said...

Hey you two! You've put together a beautiful memorial for your son. It's so touching to see the love you have for him. Your daughter is a darling! I'm so happy we have found your post. Stay strong!

SANDERSON / MCCONKIE FAMILY said...

Okay...now I am crying, again. I want you to know that I know how bad you are hurting. I know the pain of loosing my own children and now my sweet husband. I know the ache of empty arms and a heavy heart. It took me a long time to get where I am now. I have had glimpses through the veil and I know that they are okay. It is really miserable for us but I know they are okay. I know that you will hold that precious son. That during the millennium; you will raise him. The Savior makes it easier but it is still hard. President Hinckley found great comfort in visiting his wife's graveside once a week. He said he never gave her enough flowers in life and he was going to make sure she got them now. I visit Paul's graveside often. I know he is not there but there is something there that comforts me. I do talk to Paul (don't tell anyone) and I am not going to tell you what I say...but I sure miss him and it's okay to miss them and then you just got to keep moving forward. I have a brother who died at 6 months & a sister who died at age 4. I have always felt that they were my guardian angels throughout my life. You have a beautiful daughter who needs you to be happy. I promise you...you can do this.
Sharon McConkie

Tiffany Fackrell said...

How are you guys doing? I think about you guys often.

We will definiteley have to get together in December. I think we are moving the 13th or something and will be in Moses Lake for awhile before we can get into our apartment in kennewick.